Monday, March 14, 2011

the power of story... and a garden

"If you look the right way, you can see that the whole world is a garden."
- Frances Hodsgon Burnett, The Secret Garden

My senior year in college I was feeling a little adventurous and enrolled in a fiction writing class. Within the English major I could chose to concentrate in literature or creative writing. The first day in my fiction writing class I knew I had chosen the wrong concentration, however, I still had one semester left to cram in as many writing electives as I could. Don't get me wrong, I greatly appreciate all of the long papers, late nights, half read novels (and even that's being optimistic), high brow discussions, and eccentric professors. But, the aloof English literature professors didn't hold a candle to the writing professors. Dr. Troy held class at a local coffee shop where we read our short stories aloud on comfy couches in the bright sunlit room, entertaining numerous eavesdroppers; Dr. Hammersmith, a legend at Auburn, did not own a computer but used a typewriter (year 2004), had a weird aversion to staples, and hadn't bought new clothes since 1973, no doubt one of my best teachers; Dr. Braden introduced us to Moonstruck; Dr. Keirstead insisted we read aloud in our best British accent; Dr. Tong took her copy of Moby Dick with her everywhere; and Dr. Gresham was friends with "Mr. King" (Stephen). He was maybe the least eccentric of the bunch but insisted on "raising the bar" with every story we wrote. It was in his class I discovered fiction writing. 

That's a lot of introduction to tell you about something that sticks with me from that first fiction writing class, but weren't my professors great? I could tell you more, but I guess I should get to the point. Dr. Gresham asked all five of us sitting around a table in the conference room where we met, "What book first introduced you to the power of reading?" I know I'm not phrasing it exactly like he did, but he wanted to know when we were first transported to another world, lost in the pages, and couldn't put the book down, when we first experienced the power of story. My answer- The Secret Garden, somewhere around third grade, curled up on my hot pink bean bag, which was adorned with patches of rad sneakers and funky flowers. I was lost, transported to another world, and I didn't want it to be over. 


The photograph above reminds me of that book. More so, this part of our yard reminds me of it. This is our fourth spring in the house and each year we discover something new popping out of the ground, something planted maybe ninety years ago, maybe seventy or thirty years ago, by someone who dug in the dirt and gently covered bulbs, by someone who invested in the beauty of our yard. We're slowly working on cleaning up the overgrown tangled mess, but isn't there so much beauty in the age that is evident by the vines growing like wrinkles? Laurence insisted that what I kept referring to as some sort of bright green leafy ground cover was in fact the foliage of day lilies. I didn't believe him until last spring, when, after removing overgrown trees and weeds, some of those day lilies came back to life in bright orange and yellows. I'm sure we'll see even more return this year after continuing to clean up the overgrown mess. I can't wait until this patch of our yard returns to it's original intended splendor... just like that garden hidden behind the tall brick ivy covered walls. 


"As she came closer to him she noticed that there was a clean fresh scent of heather and grass and leaves about him, almost as if he were made of them. She liked it very much and when she looked into his funny face with the red cheeks and round blue eyes she forgot that she had felt shy."
- Frances Hodgson Burnett, The Secret Garden

Hmm... I think it's time to read this book again:) What book was it that first introduced you to the power of story?




Monday, March 7, 2011

Seeing Red (out the window)

Our two very large, very old camellia trees covering the south side of our home:


Our perspective:
                                                                                 
  from the kitchen                                    from the living room (the dinning room is in between these two rooms!)

Lulu's perspective:


blooming:



Monday, February 28, 2011

The Monthly Bloom













Isn't our yard amazing... in February! It's inspired my new "in every issue" feature - The Monthly Bloom. Here's some of what's been blooming, budding, or popping out of the ground right in our backyard. I have lots of details to follow up with about how we spent our (mostly) sunny Sunday afternoons in February:) 

Restoring a hundred year old house has its ups and downs no doubt. We're recently learning that repairs are not always conclusive, that short cuts inevitably end up making more work in the end, and that it's not easy to pick the perfect paint color the first time around. So, we relish in taking a break from the house and working outside whenever we can. The yard is so forgiving! It's really hard to mess things up out there. And, if you accidently plant hawthorne bushes where you think you've destroyed the yucca that turns out can't be destroyed (should have read between the lines of what the neighbor was telling us about trying to remove that plant himself), well, let the yucca reclaim reign and move the hawthorne bushes to another spot. We're constantly moving plants around until we figure out what works, and they're almost always corporative.


We've bought new plants, swapped plants, had plants forced on us by others trying to reign in their spreaders, we've dug up and transported plants from Birmingham and Spring Hill, we've attempted rooting, we've planted plants that lined the aisle at our wedding, we've taken seeds from plants at botanical gardens across the country (I think that's ok to do?), we've salvaged lavender plants from a dumpster, we've dug up hundreds of bulbs in our backyard and separated almost as many crowns, we've attended gardening workshops, lectures, and festivals where we usually feel out of place until we're bombarded with bright eyes eager to give the young folks advice... and it's only been three years! We love working in the yard together. It's one of the best unexpected joys in our marriage:) 


Well, I guess I got a little carried away there. Can you tell how much I love gardening?

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Just Getting Started


When you're not concerned with succeeding, you can work with complete freedom. 
 - Larry David


I keep thinking about something Larry David shares in the special features of one of the Seinfeld dvds. (It's been a while, but I have watched them all... with the commentary on.) He explains the paralysis he experienced after writing every episode, wondering if he'd be able to do it again, to at least meet the standard set for himself by attaining a certain level if not aspiring to greater achievement. I know, it sounds miserable, and a little bit high strung in typical Larry David fashion. Yet I find myself stuck in a similar mindset more often than I'd like- paralyzed with fear and doubt, questioning my ability, my creativity, even the value of my calling as an artist. It's why the most difficult part of a project for me is getting started, always. I doubt my success before I even begin. I worry I won't be able to do it again, or that I'll experience some sort of regression instead of progression in my work, even though I know there is no such thing as regression in the creative process, that every step, stumbly though it may be, is moving me forward. Is there any redeeming quality in this sort of thinking? Some sort of adrenaline? Maybe. But, I really don't think there's any freedom in this fear, which is problematic because freedom is an essential ingredient in creativity.

So, step one: admission. Now what? How do I control this type of thinking? What am I even trying to prove, and to whom? I know my best work comes from within me, with no ulterior motive of trying to please someone else's aesthetic- I've learned the hard way. And, yes, I truly believe that work, sub par as it may be, has moved me forward in my creative journey. I also know what that moment feels like, when all is right in the world, when I am moving and creating from someplace bigger than myself, that moment that escapes as soon as I try to grab hold of it. I've never experienced that moment when consumed with living up to some standard, even if self imposed. The two cannot coexist. The good news however, if I can just get started, that moment will likely come again. I think that's really what my work is about- not the outcome, certainly not the money, but that elusive beauty of participating in the creative process, which I'm a full believer in. So, struggling with fear and working through doubts, often just stumbling along, I find there is redemption in my work as an artist. If only I could remember this every time I'm coming up with thousands of things to do instead of just getting started.

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Forecast from our Front Yard







Here's last year's similar February forecast, even though pictures don't come close to doing our field of crocuses justice. Lulu's been barking like crazy out the front window. She does this often, but lately when we come to see what all the fuss is about we generally discover passers by stopped on the sidewalk in front of our house pointing and gazing at the hundreds of little purple flowers peeping out from the grass. They're everywhere, creeping into the back yard and flowers beds too!



Tuesday, February 15, 2011

a sweet shop





Some pics from one of our happy finds in Phoenix, Smeeks Sweet Shop. Love the bright colors, love the candy, obviously, love the robin's egg blue with red and orange, love the big glass jars filled with treats, love the orange crush poster, love the gnome home. Love a holiday embracing highly saturated reds and pinks, candy (chocolate candy), and flowers! and some cupcakes...


Wednesday, February 2, 2011

sending out some hugs and kisses









I love an excuse to enjoy some kisses. Happy handmade Valentine's cards are in my etsy shop!